DIY Hairband Holder/Organizer

Headband organizer made from the roll of paper towel and old baby blanket =D the fun is I didn't sew anything!!!

A day @ Ladies Spectacular

5:30 AM - woke-up

Still sleepy and I still want to sleep but if I did then I won't be ready in time. 

By 6:30 AM, I'm all set. Went downstairs to help Ms. G to get ready too.

8:30 AM - Off we go to Harmony Baptist Church @ Plant City for the Ladies Spectacular 2013. This will be my 3rd year =) We're going to have breakfast, lunch and snack over there too.

The weather is PERFECT! Ok, last year it's kinda just ok for me. I don't know but I just feel I didn't get something...or it makes me more confuse and hungry (spiritually). I know I took notes because that's the sign that I have to remember it because it means something to me. I know I still have those notes somewhere in my bedroom. Anyways, I'm not expecting too much this year. I readied my mind that it will just be purely work. No thinking of my future partner somewhere living in this planet earth. Ha! Oh yeah! I did pretty good, actually. I was all set for just helping Ms. G around. I guess when my mind is just set for work and not for God's message then He did something amazing =) which I'll tell later.

Theme: Celebrating New Joy.

I'm thinking, it's not for me. I can't just wrap my mind how could this fellowship be any help. From my life story - I think I heard everything. My week is pretty downhill actually so maybe it's affecting my view about any positive thinking. So, my mind is just set to help Ms. G and just sit down and wait until it's over. The New Desire singers (Dr. Brenda, his son and daughter-in-law) started singing. It's an upbeat country song. Yay for that. Because I told myself, I'm not going to cry if ever I'm touched with the message. Then they sang "He Breathes for Me"

First stanza...I was like "Oh gosh" Dumb question but still I asked, "God, how did you know?"

[Verse 1:]
Life sometimes make me smother
Feeling like I just can't breathe
Overwhelmed in the moment
God comes on the scene
In His arms I'm covered
He holds me tenderly
Speaking to my heart
Breathing life into me

Yup, that's what I felt for the last few weeks. I feel smothered and I was thinking that time, "Am I hyperventilating?" weird. In spite of what I felt I know that God's there for me. He's there...I just need to pray but I didn't. And here come the chorus part.

Chorus:
He takes my breath away
Breathing life into me
He gives me love, life and liberty
And on those days
When I struggle to breathe
I know Jesus, He breathes for me

Well, that's it! I started tearing up (╥_╥) My mind is like "I know, I know" but during those down times I'm having hard time grasping his forever love.

[Verse 2:]
When I walk in darkness
And oppression has me swayed
I wonder in my heart
Will God walk with me today
He whispers to my spirit
In awe I stand amazed
Breathing through His power
And with all my heart I say

During those times, His comforting hand is there...I know. Because I would be truly lost. One thing that really hits me and this thing has been nagging me since the year 2013 started. Personal and Intimate time with God. I don't have it =( Lack of time spent in the Word of God to completely stripped me of the most beautiful fruit of the Spirit known as JOY. I have to make a time because God has always make time to listen to my prayers and in fact he answered it. This morning I was praying while getting ready that I hope I'll win something during raffle draw. And I did (≧◡≦) It's not about the prize but He gave me more than I expected. He gave me a push and comforting hug <3

I got a souvenir where we just grab something in the box and in their I got this: LOYAL/STEADFAST I Cor. 15:58, the second one is REJOICE - Psalm 5:11. I was thinking...loyal? Steadfast? I asked "how?" I smiled... Sometimes, it still surprised me that I can have conversation with Him and I know that he answers back. He knows that I'm getting tired of waiting. I'm getting tired of all this troubles and trials. I'm getting tired of everything. and when I open the package, it says, "STEADFAST". And next one is "REJOICE". Hmmm, rejoice while holding steadfast? "God, you want me to do this? I'm already struggling...how can I still rejoice?"  And he answered me with this song:

He's not through with you,
God's done it again,
He calmed the troubled waters,
He stretched forth His hand
He's not through with you,
He's got a work for you to do,
God has worked His miracle again,
He's not through with you.

My tears over-flowed. I told myself I'll never cry...I tried to fight and refuse to break my wall. And I lose.

My heart is overwhelmed, I've messed up again
After all that I have done, how can I serve Him,
Bad choices I have made, a failure people say,
But I've read in the Bible, where God's people made mistakes
And I realize as I confess my sin,
I am forgiven, as He's forgiven them.

When I started the year 2013, the message I keep getting from sermons is about fear. And satan uses my weaknesses and my situation. And I'm allowing it. I don't have to battle it on my own but I choose to do it all alone. I'm wrong. If I want joy, I have to want it and claim it.

I'm very thankful that I didn't miss this Ladies Fellowship. I want to re-connect with God. I miss HIM <3

Signing off,

AsianMom07

Feeling Duh!

Somehow I'm feeling like all depressed..or going to be depressed :( 
I can feel it... some "unknown" feeling is creeping in. 
I'm kinda cranky.
I need to get out and start walking around the lake again. 
I need to breathe!

Inhale~Exhale!
AsianMom07

2013: Ready or Not?

2:24 A.M.

Wide awake (O_O) Had a good laugh watching Madagascar 3 with the family. 

Looking back, My past 2 years haven't been exactly my "the best" but because of that - I see God's handiwork. His grace and love that moves me where I am today. The battle is not over but I know God is always there for me. 

Thank you Lord, I won't be still here if not of because of your grace and unfailing love. Many times, I want to give up and just wilt away from life. You always bring the right person...just right in time. 

Thank you.

Happy New Year!!!!

Signing off,

AsianMom07